Postby teach » June 17th, 2009, 6:40 pm
here is a note I posted on facebook that describes a little about the book and how it is affecting me.
I began a new book yesterday entitled "Who I am in Christ." I must admit that so far it has really opened my eyes about what it means to be a child of God. I have only gotten through 2 chapters and already I am reminded that I truly am saved by grace, through faith, and not by works. It's funny to me that I have been a child of God since I was 5 years old and I easily forget what that means. As a teenager, I struggled with perfection. I felt that if I did the tiniest thing wrong that everyone would know and I would no longer be a "good example" like everyone wanted me to be. I worked through that and found freedom in Christ. Now, I struggle with my imperfection. I have made countless mistakes over the past year and a half and I have struggled more in that time than I ever have in my life.
But, I think... I hope, that all stops now. Sure, I will still struggle, but not to the same degree. I hope and pray that the things I learn through this book will stick with me for the rest of my life. I have learned that my worst enemy and my worst critic is me and one of the greatest quotes from this book so far is this: "No person can consistently behave in a way that is inconsistent with how he perceives himself." I must perceive that I am a child of God and constantly remind myself of that everyday.
Have you ever found yourself not at peace with God? Well I have, and this is why: disobedience. I have always been miserable when I disobey God! And this is why, we are in harmony with our Heavenly Father when we obey him. Our disobedience does not affect that blood relationship with our Father, but it does affect the harmony we have with Him. Personally, I am glad that I become miserable when I disobey Christ. Being miserable lets me know when I am wrong. I don't always "fix it" right away, but, I always end up right back where I need to be: In the arms of the one and only ever present, consistent, love of my life, Jesus Christ. It is in Him that I find peace, rest, hope, love, forgiveness, strength, and understanding.
I am thankful for wise men and women who write great books like this one so that I can be reminded of what I once knew and somehow have forgotten.
As I think about my life and where I am ( a 27 year old single girl who is the youngest of nine children, a teacher, a member of the Zadok ministries at Abba's House, a friend to many, and most importantly, a child of God!), I smile to myself because I know that I am exactly where God wants me to be. I wasn't at peace a few weeks ago, but now, I am at peace, a peace that passes all understanding because it comes from the only one who truly can give me peace: my Abba Father!
Thank you to all of my friends and family! I love you very much!
wendy k