Postby dolfan » June 1st, 2005, 3:55 am
Sunflowertabi:
I think I understand you more now. You're 27 years old, you've got a history of having turned your life away from following God, and you've turned back to following Him. You've read and watched what you've been given to read and watch. Like the rest of us, you are slowly getting your arms around the truth about God and seeking to live for Him according to what you've learned and how you've learned it.
Whether you are committed to the death, so to speak, to the General Assembly's interpretation of Scripture, the published works of entrenched COGOP authors, etc., remains to be seen since you are still among the living. Years ago, when I was preparing to seek licensure as COGOP evangelist, I took the old "Body of Christ" course. The author asked that the student lay aside every preconception and what he/she had known prior to seeing the coursework, and to let the course speak clearly through whatever filters one might have had. As alarmed as I was at that request, I complied, since I believed that what I was going to read was true. It wasn't a big step since I was already there.
It is not unfair to your belief system, or mine, or anyone else's for that matter, to reach a point where to test the truth of what I know, I lay aside what I've learned, understood and accepted. I come fresh to the table of the Lord. The way I've packed the truth of Christ is always rearranged by the Master. Some ideas are thrown out, some are simply removed, refolded and put carefully back in a better place, and some yet are left right where they are.
This happens continually to me on many levels. It once troubled me because I felt that I needed a set of nailed-down truths that wouldn't move. But, the Lord showed me that truth is a Person, not a set of ideas, rules or principles. And, He also showed me that He was nailed down, but to live again meant that there had to be movement. Life is change. Change is constant. Once I learned that I may depend on Him and need not depend on whether "truth" as I'd learned and known it so far is hard, unshakeable ground, I realized that I really was interacting with the God of all truth and life. So, as He rearranges my heart and mind through His Word, His Spirit, my life in the body of Christ in my local church, everyday experiences, etc., I'm not upset by the fact of changes in my perspective and understanding. Those changes do not threaten the truth, because Truth is a Person, not my idea of Him and how He works.
To disagree with you or argue with you point-for-point on your statements is not going to help you. It may boost my ego for scoring what I think are points, but that's self-serving hogwash. Someone else may do it without that baggage. I can't. That may be a cop-out on my part, but I get squeezed out of the tube without a lot of pressure when I read what you say. It won't profit anyone for me to go there. I'm trying to be honest with you, and I don't know how much or when those times of being washed over by the water of the Word will effect change in you.
I do pray that the Lord will guide your thoughts and how you think them.
Human government bears the same relation to hell as the church bears to heaven. (David Lipscomb, On Civil Government, 72).